Seeing More Clearly

I am now in my middle age or slightly older and yet sometimes I feel as though I have lived for eons and then other times I feel as though I were twenty only yesterday. But one thing I find for sure is, although my body is older and I don't have the physical stamina that I once had, I like myself better than ever before and I see the world much more clearly than ever before as well.

I don't have a great deal in as far as monetary wealth, yet I know deep inside of me that I am richer than most in other ways and grateful just to be here, for my life is a gift. A gift from whom, I do not know, yet I feel for certain that there is a greater intelligence out there whether it be known as God, or life force or many other names humans call this marvelous energy that help life to sprout and flourish out of a ball of gas no less.

Where this incredible planet of ours is headed, God only knows for sure, but it doesn't look good and it is horrifying at the rapid pace that humans seem to be destroying our very home! I know no other creature on earth that kills it own kind as humans and pollutes and destroys as we do. It is amazing that as we progress (or so they call it) with technology, education, and live the finer life, we are rapidly self-destructing and the vast majority doesn't take responsibility of their actions, nor truly tries to rectify what is happening to humankind.

I am glad that I was born when I was and not later. I fear for the children who come after me and glad I chose not to bring anyone into this world at this stage of human existence.

None the less, as terrible as we are, we humans have a spirit of hope that seems to surface when things are at their worst and often it is like the hand of God reaching down to pull us out of an abbyss when it seems like there is no hope. I believe that is often when we refer to such events as miracles.

Dispite it all, every day is filled with little miracles. And these too, I see more clearly than I did when I was young.

Yesterday it snowed and as I went out to walk my dog before bed lastnight, there was a calmness in the air and I could hear the still. How beautiful the sound of peace and quiet. In that instant I filled with tears of joy to have this and also felt such sadness for all the people living in war-torn parts of the world who never know peace. Then I noticed how the snow glistened from my porch light. It looked like a fantasy land where natures ice crystals sparkled like trillions of little diamonds as if to say, "Look at me before I melt, I am here to purify your space".

Now of course you must thing me a nut, but not so, only one who wishes the world to see the beauty in everything that we have. If only people would love instead of hate and know that in an instant all that we know could be gone forever.